I get that, but id be looking forward to watching us play any game, whether Lyon, Watford or Harrogate!
Im low too, maybe the lowest ive ever been supporting us. Doesnt stop me scrambling around for a stream or spending money i dont have on tickets.
That's the thing, I am usually that way inclined too.
I think after being taken over and spending £150 odd million and somehow contriving to worrying about staying up is the most Everton thing ever, just a bit exhausted by us and its taking its toll now.
Despite everything I have said mind, by Thursday I will most likely end up watching the game to be honest, will be over it by then, guess thats the cycle of being an Evertonian though isn't it.